home alone

Am on a self-imposed exile - wanted to prepare for my presentation (at least start preparing for it) and thought if I continue to party my crazy way I will never get down to it. And though I was alone in my apartment on Sat from only 5 pm I realized how difficult it has become for me to stay alone at house (when was the last weekend eve when I was alone at my place?). Next day too, though I went for lunch at d's (watched the football too - I think seahawks are good at passing but their running needs TO improve :P) then to trader joes (got sushi) and mayuri (got pooram puri - ever eaten such a combination) and then P was here for some chai - by night inspite of having some good work to do I got really bored of my own company (and I thought I was an interesting person). Nonetheless I continued to work ..the following lines never sounded more true ...

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

I can't believe I took this task up - inspite of having such a big fear of public speaking - am only fearless at public blogging - that's why I am - a half baked cookie - (finally managed to use my blog title somewhere - will explain it in detail someday - gotto get back to the work my Will is forcing me to get back to.)