Ever felt like Neo ... felt pre-programmed ...felt pre-destined?
Felt that your behavior, dreams, aspirations are predesigned in form (not content) - by something - may be at the core level by your needs, your desires, your insecurities ...but ...have you felt the constraints ? Have you felt constrained by your own survival instincts ?
- felt like you were slave before you were born ...or because you were born ...a slavery that doesn't extract your labour, nor does it curb your desires - coz it's easy to fight that out - but a slavery that ...that made you a human and not a bird ...that pre-defined you...
have you ever felt - helpless while comprehending anything that is magical, unexplainable, unfathomable, unachievable..why do we want what we want? why do we fear what we fear?
...and then have you ever missed that bird - the bird who could be you but is not - because you don't decide ... or do you decide ? Do you know?
Have you ever paid heed to this insane person within you ...
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A few semesters back, I did a course on western philosophy. The discussion was about “determinism”. Is the world determined? Well… after much of introspection, my answer for this metaphysical query turned out to be funny. Whenever something bad happened to me, I assumed deterministic character of this universe, when I did something good, I gave myself an illusion of choice.
On a higher level, if one wants to know his desires, I think (s)he must probe into her/his dreams. I am getting excellent results in such an expedition.
(Dunno how serious the blog is, the phrases “rambles” and “half baked” confuse me!)
@shashank - Well I did read your blogs and checked out your expeditions with yourdreams - I am actually impressed by the way you are persuing them. However, am not quite sure if all of your dreams are reflective of your desires ...well except when they are your day-dreams. I have all kind of weird dreams and most of my dreams originate from my worries of the day ...but well I haven't dwelled much on that...however out here I am questioning at a layer more fundamental than that - I am - but do I have control of me being me. Can I decide my being on this earth? And being a human? Can I decide on what I love? Can I decide on whther I want to live? Can I decide on things that formulate my dreams (as opposed to what the dreams themselves are)?
and well to answer your last question - this blog is total time pass- these are rambles of a restless mind and the rambles themselves are half-baked :) - I might disown most of the things I say later...
anyways how are you doing ?
I wish to contradict your view on daydreaming. I feel that innermost desires are reflected only in the deepest of the dreams, while daydreams are just temporal reflections of emotion.
Secondly, let me share with you an incident that relates to your meta-question (do I have control of me being me? ). Once I was bugged by a mathematical problem. I delved over it for a day or two, and then left it. After some days, the solution suddenly appeared in my mind, while I was watching a movie! It seems like I don’t have full conscious control over my mind! (That is one reason I still fear “research”.) The question you are asking might still be a meta-meta-question, but anyways...
By the way, do you believe in god?
well I believe in the fact that God is my belief .. I feel that feeling gives me lots of security... And on the contrary I do not believe that he is a control freak and controlling our lives... I feel we control our lives ...the concept of God is something orthogonal but is reassuring ... For me connection with God is like connection with something that is (me - matter)..difficult to explain but well I guess you get the point :)
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